aku dpt kek SECRET RECIPE lh !!

walaupun hri jdi ku telh leps..
tp still dlm bln 12 lg ea..
aq lhir 16/12/? .,
sgt bt aq trsnym mlm ny..
aq dpt a slice of cake lh !!!!
SECRET RECIPE plk tu !!!
aq th npe ipin beli 2.,mmg lh tok aq n muna..
n mst sbb nnt befday dy.,dy nk dpt 2 potg kek
so..kteowg kne lh bls gk t..heheee
tp..x kesh lh tu...
yg pntg...
his a first guy among my boyfriends that gave me a cake even for a slice..
TQ so much DudE !!! =))))))))))))))

eeeeeuuuuuuwwwwwwww........!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

assalamualaikum,,,

entry ny bukn lh nk kutuk sespe.,aq th aq mgkn bt gk kot.,tp aq x bt pn.,x prnh bt pn.,

sumpah demi Allah aq geli., bukn sbb aq jeloz tp tolglh fhm.,jgn nk tunjuk yg itu dosa..

kte th dn sume org th cple tu dosa.,dh th kte bt doasa tp npe still nk tunjuk kt org???

pleezzz lh !!!!!.,aq x jeloz ! skit pn x !., cme aq sgt geli.,

ya Allah,,pe yg de dlm hti, prasaan n otak aq ny..

knpe aq mle rse geli ble t'bce yg mcm tu???

aq yg sbnrnye Kau cuba tunjuk padaku..

aq ku lemah ya Allah.,

aq th aku berkeinginan utk itu.,tp tidaklh utk menunjuk..

aq melengkp kn diri utk ke arh itu..

tolg aq ya Allah.,jauhilh aku dr perasaan yg boleh merosakkn hbungn aq dgn org len..

aq x mhu membnci dn d bnci..

tolg lh kuatkn iman aq tok melwn nafsu dn godaan syaitn ini ...

Kau yg Maha Berkuasa dan Maha Mengetahui..

semoga ada hikmah besar di sebalik sume ini,,,

mlm sblm blek esk tok face stdy week sem 3

assalamualaikum..
adk aq demand nk puteri mndi..aq pn mmg nk kuih tu pn sbb dh lme sgt x mkn..
dr sblm blek cuti krisms lg aq asyk sebut kueh tu je..so, ble dh blek ny aq bt lh..
ble dh syok uli tepung n bt inti sume.,aq rse plek je.,asl lh tepung yg aq rebus tu rse semcm je..
aq sruh ibu tgk.,
 lastly,
 my mom said that it was a wrong flour !!!,
wtf?????, aku dh penat kot uli tepung tu sume.,hbes 1 paket tepung aq gne,,
sumenye aq cmpk dlm tong ja !!!!
bazir ja!!!
cm nr nk kawen ny???
tepung pn bley slh...
tp nseb bek puding roti mnjdi even beks bocor..tp aq th rsenye still bez gk..heheheee
pent dh~~~ nk solt..tp bju aq bsh bsuh sume piok td...pent nyah!!!
x bpe stdy pn duk umh ny.,
esk nk blek awl lh..

...Alhamdullillah...

apabila aq nekad untuk membenci dirinya,

aku mula memasang azam untuk merelakan pemergiannya,

aku perlu sedar hakikatnya dan dia telah membuat pengakuan kepadaku,

aku tak mahu mengingatinya lagi aku perlu redha atas apa yang berlaku,

kini, aku bersedia dan benar-benar bersedia untuk menerima kehadiran teman baru dalam hidupku,

selepas pengakuan darinya aku mula terfikirkan sesuatu, 

aku ingin berkawan dengan anak kawan ibuku bagi mengeratkan lagi hubungan antara keluarga kami,

aku berharap aku ada jodoh dengan anaknya, aku anak ke-2 dan dia anak ke-2 juga,

aku tidak mahu berharap sangat, tapi aku berdoa untuk itu,

dan rasanya Allah mendengar doaku. terima kasih Ya Allah,

aku harap kali ini biarlah yang benar, jangan terburu-buru lagi

I'Allah kesabaranku akan membuahkan hasil nanti,

aku tidak mahu berdendam, biar pun ku katakan benci tapi tidak sebenarnya..

aku sangat terkejut pabila dia 'approve'ku di fb, dan aku sangat tidak sangka dia terus menegurku di pm,

em,,,1 langkah yang baru dan sangat bijak dari dia..semoga perkara ini akan berlaruta,, =)))))))

cukup dulu sampai di sini,,nanti akan ku ceritakan lagi perkembangan seterusnya..

buka lh pintu hatimu,,,

aku perlu benar-benar melupakanmu,,
aku perlu buka pintu hatiku untuk lelaki lain,,
aku ingin berkenalan dengan lelaki lain,,
lelaki yang boleh membuat aku melupakanmu,,
lelaki yang boleh buat aku tidak teringatkanmu,,
lelaki yang boleh dengar semua ceritaku,,
lelaki yang boleh bahagiakanku,,
lelaki yang akan setia denganku,,
lelaki yang boleh pimpinku duniadan akhiat,,
wahai hati, izinkanlah kehadiran lelaki lain dalam hidupmu..
berhati-hatilah, jangan dikau terburu-buru lagi..
aku tahu bahagia sedang menantimu..
umurmu telah meningkat..tuanmu perlukan teman hidup
untuk menyempurnakan dirinya....

entry pertama dlm bahasaku,,,,

blog ny dh x de kne mengena ngn EC2 lg...

aq mmg plan nk deactive kn je tp ble pkr blek,,,,

aq prlu ruang tok brcte.,klu de psgn, dy lh akn jd mgse.,

nk cte kt ibu tp ibu x slalu de ngn sy dn ibu sbuk jgk.,

nk cte kt kwn dy pn de mslh dy gk,,

sy prlu ruang tok brcte,,

sy seorg yg ske brcte,,

org knl sy akn th stry sy,,

maafkn sy klu stry sy borg,,

tp ini lh ruang yg sy de selen org sekeliling sy,,,

sy x hrpkn org bce tp atleast hti sy lega leps meluahkn,,,

I wanna go home

tomorrow I have my last class on this semester.,

that class will end at 7 p.m,

I wish tomorrow my father will take me here,,

I just can't make any decisions right know,,,

tonight, I hope I and Elli will be easy for us to add subject for next semester,,,

@}--- special rose for Seha

0LLaLaaa,,,,...

tomorrow I and Elli was decided to cook something special for Seha,,
and Seha was told us that she likes to eat something that makes from us,,
so,,we decided to cook ayam paprik., this is our first time cook this dish special for Seha,,

that dish would looks like on that photo,,
hopefully everything will be okey,,
Seha will enjoy with her lucnh tomorrow,,,
heheheee ^^,

reminder for me, I & you

it's bored to talk about love

it's bored to always think about love

it's bored to find love

it's bored to lists about my love

it's bored to waiting for a lover

it's bored to remember about 'him'

it's bored to imagine how's his looks

and many mores

especially love to find a Mr.Right

but,, we can't said that "we bored to love Allah"

Allah will always listen to your conscience

Allah will not tired to approve all your wish lists

Allay will always listen your prayer

even your every words is your own prayer

just relax and think for a while

Allah knows what is the best for you and your future

don't give up don't yield with devil temptation

..fasting..

assalamualaikum.,
as usual for Muslim, Monday and Thursday are the days that circumcision for us for fasting.
last night, Muna was invited me, Lia and faz for fasting today.,
we all agreed and decided for fasting today,,,
but, what was happen is.....we're not fasting.,
after a late woke up.,we all try to find rice... huhuuu
only Faz still fasting for today because she's not done yet her replacement fast.,
so,,,what I can conclude here is,,,we will eat rice together after this on Maghrib while watching Tentang Dhia..hehehee

I disappointed again and again and again

when he came to my life, he makes me smile, I felt that he's everything for me,,
he loves me but he's loves his gf more than me,,
yup ! that the fact I have to accept,,
he's not mine and maybe can't be mine,,
even what he said before this,,
please come back to me if you really sure with your feelings,,
I hate to cry because of you but my heart was cried in silent mode,,
I always pray that one day you'll be mine,,
but it just a dreams,,, I really hope I will meet a guy that can makes me forget about you!
totally forget about you !!!
I hate you !!! I really hate you!!! you're not royal with your partner !!
trust me !! after this,, I will always hate you !!

today was not fairy tales,,,,,

I just came back from KL last night,,,
I reached at home around 11 p.m,,,
I had my slept at late 12 p.m,,,
I had to woke up early,,
after subuh I can't continue my sleep as usual
I have to get ready early for that explorace
I, muna, faz, lia, & hafiz in one team...
we had a lot of fun, we runs, solve problems, laughs, had a lunch together.. and many mores..
and all those things was worth for us even we're really tired right know.,
we're had number 4th in this race..number was not important,,
the important is we can spent aou time together and we'll have certificate because join that event,,,

=(((((((

I just came back from KL with seha,,,
we went to sunway pyramid,,
for me,,today is nothing
nothing and nothing
I use rm 80 for today
but I got nothing
what I've planned was "nucghvujtmr,lcjexoisu ynfuceuivc........" 
nothing that makes me joy for today,,
a bad journey.,a spoil journey.,
better I get my sleep right know,,

a bad day

a damn day !!!!
impossible his gf reply my msg at ym,,,
impossible he with his gf on this time,,,
I just can't believe that,,,
I really need an explanations !!!!

calculus,,

I love calculus..
I always try to complete the questions..
I hope calculus will help my pointer for this semester..
I was meet Mr.Syah and he was answer all my questions..
I really sure that will help me a lot on assignments and my final exam..

today is my day !!!

h0LLa,,,,,,

today is my 20th birthday,,,,,

I'm happy because I'm still alive,,, thank God

my housemates was celebrate it with me last night..

the most unforgettable is...C0fFeE baTh..

hahahaa..really damn it !!!!

I really hate coffee.,even for smile,,eeeuuuwwwww,,,,,,it's foul !

to elli,,TQ for the cake, TQ because still remember my favorite cake..

to muna, ika, faz and lia,,TQ for the supper...

to my mr.M you was gave me an unforgettable memory last night..hehehee

I miss u & luv u

2 days more,,,,

I count on you...
for my "day" ...
day that I hope will make me smile...
will give me a sweet memories...
for my beloved guy I hope you will do something that I'm not expect at all...
sometimes I just felt that you are mine., but not yet., I can't put any hope on that...
I afraid I will disappointed again with you., but, honestly I'm happy when I with you...
for my bro,,please....please.....please.....support me,,,=((((( huhuuu,,,,
I would like to met you this weekend...

please be good for me,,,

I want to use washing machine tonight,,,
but that machine was make trouble to me,,,
please,,please,,please help me machine,,,
there's a lot of my clothes need you to serves tonight,,,
I really hope you will be okay after this,,,
I will give you a rest about a couple of hours,,,
later,,please wash my clothes okay??? heeee,,,,,

"the power of money"

just now,,
I bought my stationery for facing my becoming exam,,
the total was rm 10.60 and my food rm 2.50,,
I was planned for thrifty for last week, this week until the end of semester,,
but I think right know,, my plan was failed,, I can thrifty on my foods,,
but not for other things,, my shampoo, my stationery, my shopping,
and I also plan for hang out for this weekend,,
money again !!
sometimes,, I felt that rm 50 is just nothing,
rm 50 for one week or usually more than that,,
that's the power of money,,
you can't control that,,
without money,,life is nothing,,
even you want to go to toilet,,you have to pay for that

2nd last assignment was done by me,,,,

log's book for pandu just completely done by me at 6.30 p.m..
I'm really happy for that.,for this semester we only have 2 more weeks..
and I only have one more assignment that need to be done by my group..

I will not check my coursework !!
I know I'm not good but I will always try to be the best.,
all this for my future and my parents..
I will score for all papers...
hopefully I will achieve my target..

him,,,,

almost every night before we sleep we will chat together by ym..
we still can share everything together,,,
we still can laugh together,,,
he still can makes me smile,,,
I always realizes that he's already have the special one,,
I just a single girl that need someone that maybe him to be my sides,,
I know that our story are already pass and it was become a memories,,
but...em,,maybe there's still have made between us,,
em,,I can't say so much about that,,,
I really afraid if I will hurt again,,,
just let it go..Allah knows the best for me,,

going to KL

actually I'm not plan for going to KL today,,
but, when my parents invited me,,
I can't said "No" for them,,
I just went there.,we're promise to to meet at S0g0...huhuu
I didn't plan to buy a t-shirt.,but,,hehehee I was buy it one.,
I happy when see my family happy..
I really enjoy cause I can spent my Sunday with them,,,
there're everything for me..
I love them,,I always pray for their goodness and happiness,,
=))))))))

schedule for next semester,,

as usual when a semester comes to the end,,
upsi student's need to draft their own schedule,,
a lot of problems we have to face while doing this draft,,
a chronic time or a climax is when a register time,,
portal will always stuck on that time,,
patience will be tested on that time,,
only a lucky person can't see the error part,,,
and I hope I is the person,,
hopefully I, elli, lia, and seha simplified for this time,,
okey !! I can't stand anymore..
adiiooss ,,,, gd nyte,,

friends..

I was told elli that I want a soft copy of algebra assignments for 2 times.,
I was told her on the right time when she is infront of her notebook.,
but,, until now she didn't give yet the soft copy tome.,
I know I'm not clever like her., she doesn't need to study hard so much to get a good result.,
but I'm not like her.,I have to works more and more than her to get that good result.,
I really need a soft copy for me to make a revisions.,
sometimes I felt that I was isolated from her and seha.,
but I have to ignore that feelings.,
that feelings will destroy our relationship..

em,,,,last night

he said I was changed.,
but from what aspect he didn't mentioned it.,
I just felt that I'm not change at all.,
I'm still who I am before and after break with him.,
maybe last night and last two night what I'm said just makes him think for a while
Who really I am..It's really me..
who loves to talk with the person that she feel comfortable with..
mayus is a person that understand me..he's character and his personality majority in my list..but, I'm not with him right know.,he just found a new person that can make him happy more than me.,I can share everything with him.,we're just no hesitation to lough together or to ridicule together..
syafiq is a person that very straight with his attitude.,sometimes I felt bored with him.,every words that comes out from his mouth can make you heard if you're not rally know him..I just really confirm with my feelings that I really have no feelings with him.,his also already had his love

what??? Ec class cancel????

for the first time Ec class was canceled!!!!
hahahaaa..I'm so surprised
I always dreamed for that
one day before tuesday..
only that things I will dreamed off
finally !!! my dream comes true !!!
heehehee^^,

I have no spirit for today

today I fasting with all my housemates
quite tired.,quite hungry.,quite lethargic
today I have role play.,this feelings will always came on every tuesday especially on EC class..
just ready for it even my heart said "you lie on yourself, you're not in good condition".
hah.. !!!, just cool.,everything will be okey...believe on yourself

it will not happen

what I wish for next week only a dream..

he can't come here just for meet me..

he's far from me., I know who I am..

I just he's ex.,and maybe I'm not important to him..

I just want to enjoy on my 20th birthday..

I don't want stay at tanjung malim on that weekend..

I want do something unforgettable..

go to Damansara...my brother will not there on that day..

huh,,,, maybe it will be a sad day for me..

maybe I will cry under a blanket on that day..

it's hard to forget a bad memory

people always said...'let gone by gone' 'just ignore' 'don't think about it anymore'
'what past it just past' 'open a new diary' 'just act like nothing happen'
but aren't they noticed that it's not easy as A - B - C.,
even we try to busy our self in one all day.,before sleep we still think about it for a while.,even for a minute or a few seconds.,we try to let it go..but deep inside our heart and brain.,it's still keep running inside.,
we can't avoid it.,unless we found something to replace it..yup !!! REPLACE IT!
but... I'm not found it yet..huhuuu =((((((

my 'U' !!

with him..I started to use "I & U" while chatting or talking that also after clash..
with him..I went for a first dating..
with him..I really feel a true love..
with him..I felt I really appreciated by him..
with him..I really felt that he's my right guy..
with him..even after clash, we still contact each other, If people doesn't know about us, I really sure they will aspect us as a couple, but not anymore, he's already had his love..
but I...still find a true love..
my friends said I hard to accept another guys it because deep inside my hear is still him..
em,,,I know about that.,my story with him was a year ago.,it just a memory
just let it go..time will decide it..pray for a goodness between us...

daa ~~~

shikh..is a guy that I admire before this...
I just decided to lost contact with him...
and I really do it..what make me really disappointed about him are :
he's never call me
he's never text me
he's never try to top up at digi sim card to contact me
he's never try to say "hi" at me on fb or ym or even 'buzz' me..
he's never do that !!!
just now..I really fell that I'm not important towards him..
even I not contact for such a long time.,he's also didn't try to find me or contact me
even though we're online at the same time..
it really show that.,he's not loves me and I'm not important to him..
I was waste my money for him..for a new sim card. I bought 2 new numbers for us..
that because I really aspect he wants serious with me..but know it's nothing..
why I so stupid??? I really regret about that..huhhh !!!

10 days more...

today is tuesday 6/12/2011

heheee just 10 days more...

I hope on my 20th birthday...

there's something sweet will happen to me...

I so thankful.,my mid test calculus was best !!!

the result just make me smile and smile and smile...=))))))))))))

I love multivariable calculus..ya!! I love it..

list before & on 16th December 2011

today.,on 5th of dec.,I was finished read my Quran..

Alhamdullillah..it's still in my plan before my period and before my birthday..

16/12 will in Friday..on that night I hope I can read yassin for my late mama and my late mak..

I just miss them so much...

on 16/12.,I hope I will meet mayus as I planned..to fulfill my promise towards him..

on saturday I just planned to go kya house's.,meet them..and on sunday back to tanjung malim..

what I want for my birthday just...I want a memory..memory that I will remember until I die..

be patient

Different person have their own opinions in certain issue..
even we are disagree with that things we have to accept that..
accept for avoid misunderstanding, avoid fighting, avoid dispute..
I know I'm not perfect.,I just like others who want in love and be loved..
please take care of yourself..please...I don't want something bad happen to you..

skip class ??!!

heheheeee.....
for the 1st time...em,,actually not really first time..
in this semester...I was skip 3 class include today..
1st my pandu class because missunderstanding with the information given on group...
2nd was my 3p alternate class..that one because all my members doesn't wanted to attend that class.,so,,,I also had to skip that class..
3rd was today.,hehee,,,still 3p class, I feel tired, I had to top up back my sleep for last 2 days..,so,,I and elli was sleep.,it's hard for us to wake up early in monday morning for attend that class...
s0rry lect.,we promise we will attend your class on wednesday...hee^^,

tired !

this weekend just not a weekend for me !
I had to attend my class from morning until afternoon.,
for Saturday & Sunday
then, after class I have to complete the report book
I'm just too tired.,I'm hate all this..I get stomach and waist pain..
I can't sit properly right know..I just need rest..
hopefully I will get better soon..gd nyte~~~

reality..or a fraud??

I know you already have a special one..
but,,,every time when I remind you about her or I open a topic about her..
you will always change back the topic or you will not answer my questions..
why you???? why you do this to me????
I don't wanna go a date with girl's boyfriend.,
please understand me..I know you know what my feeling says about you...

tension !!!

I'm tired with my studies..
why I'm not born as a clever person in all aspect of life...
I want be clever in mathematics and business and also my religion..
I want be success !!! it hard for me to understand something in short time..
please Allah help me.
make all this easy for me,...

open day at KhAR

after maghrib I and Lia went to TS hypermarket to buy kitchen stuffs as usual when came to new month..

total was rm96.45.,quite surprise because each member need to paid rm16 each..big amount !!
then, I went to KhaR., for the first day I came there...I use rm rm10..

tomorrow???,...maybe another rm10.,heheheee

my watch !!!!

I love to collecting watch...
but I know that I love to have a branded watch...
and I know I can't be able to buy a branded watch...
I'm still student I have to control my money...
but my watch makes a problem this morning
maybe because yesterday it fall from my cupboard
or maybe it wants me to buy a new watch....hehehee

I know that I'm not enough clever

I feel I will disappointed my friends if I not trying to do it..
but when I try to think about it..I will so afraid if I can't generate any ideas on it
Allah..please help me..I want finish all this..
please give me enough smart to complete all this work.
I begging on You Allah.

2 more assignments

what I aim to do dis night is.... :
complete report EC question no.8
take a look of my algebra assignment
print note calculus for tomorrow
maybe chat with him...
ya !! chat with him., as usual

counting a days...

a few days more is my birthday..

I was make a promise with him to hang out together on that day..

I hope that will be realizes...

I just confuse isn't he single or what????

I hope something really sweet will happen on that day..

...My Sweet 20th... =))))))

I'm just afraid

I afraid if one day you will leave me again...

I noticed that you're the only one that understand me...

I know I can't aspect anything from you...

please heart don't put any hope on him...

just let it go..time will decide that...

pray for that, pray for your happiness...

InsyaAllah..God know better than u.,

he's nice guy...

after I break with him...
I just make a dicision to lost contact with him...
and it work !! I was took a long time to accept all this...
on that time, he makes a new relationship with others girl and he using that picture as default picture on fb...
I was accept it., surprisely I'm not cry on that time..it really show that I can adapt with that situation...
but now..everything was changed.. I close back with him... I feel happy for that..I just worry if this will not for a long time...where he's gf???.,why he keeps looking for me???.,I just feel that our relationship is better right know than before..Mayus..I'm happy you're back into my life...you just came when I wanted to know 'a guy'.,it just like you dont want me to know about that guy...TQ Mayus because you just came on the right time...I really hope this will be a good ending for us..Amen.,

I just want to hang out tonight !!

I juat want to go far from this house for a while..

I want to take a walk for get rest of my mind..

just a minutes ago..Lia was invites me, Ikah and Elli to join her watching a movie..

we all excited for that..especially me..because I was thinking that I want to meet my adopt family..

I miss them so much...there all go for watching and I will hang out with my family...but..................

everything not happen this night...I still in room doing my work...but my heart and brain are not with me...

someone !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ,,,, please... please... understand me ='(

counting a days . . .

a day for me going home

a day for week 12th

a day for me calling him

a day for me get sleep well

a day for me go to kYa hause

a day for me facing my final exam

a day for everything, anything that we couldn't aspect something will happen

a day for me to realizes that I'm going to reach my real 20th, to be an adult and more responsible with averything surroundings me...

alhamdullillah~~~~

finally....

after 1 p.m on monday morning...

on the day we have to submit that work..

we have done our algebra assignment...

my group had a problem with dayah !!

she never gave her comitment on this assignment..

she's so lucky.,she just put her name on our assignment..

without any idea or help or anything from her !!

I'm just fed up with her !!

after this I will not choose her for any group assignment

attention to all girls that know about this story.

algebra !!!!

please help us !!!!

A.S.A.P

due date is tomorrow but we still can't find the answer..

if we still in this condition 12 marks will be lost in our carrymarks..

please Allah help us..I'm begging on you..

I'm just feel guilty to muna..g0od luck muna i know you can do it.

help me !!

I'm not ok...

I need to talk with someone..

I'm just feel lonely right know..

I'm not in a good mood..

I target 2 assignments that have  to done by today...

but I have no spirit for that..

I have to encourage myself right know..

nobody will help me right know unless myself..

menu for today...

assalamualaikum...

I and Muna just think something for our menu...

we just decide to make a cake or maybe a pudding that a basic ingredient is bread..

I notice that I have not enough money for another 2 months..

but.,when my friends invite to cook something..it's hard for me to say 'no' or not join them..

I love cooking..it's a good experience for me and also my friends..

for him...please don't do this to me..

I just want to talk with you..

I just want spend my time with you..

I begging on you.,please don't give back the sim card..

I bought it for you..for us..I hope you understand that..

u got to go..go..go.go..

hey babe and dude...
I'm in good mood today and I like to share something with you all..
did you ever heard a song got to go by najwa...??
it's a best song babe !! I like the soul in that song..really makes me relax and enjoy..
lyrics are best arrangement is so cool...
just hear this babe dude !!
please click on that url...TQ
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SlEiuLm8yxk

still sulk...=(((((

when we likes a person for no reasons..

I like him.,I try to accept him as he are..

if I want a rich person,  good looking, same degree as me, near from me,...

I will not stalker him, I will not try to attract his attention, I will not get his phone number..

I know I'm not in your list..you can detect what my heart said about you..

and I was asking you in the beginning of our friendship if you wanted to reject me...

but you wasn't said that..that mean you accept me as I am..

I hope you will change to be a better person in any aspect in your life.. 

I really hope that I can see and feel that you need me and I really need you..

this night

I was studied algebra just know with elli and lia and muna..

I'm glad because I have a friends like them..

they help me a lot..

I hope this relationship will be a long relationship..

I'm sulk right know...

I just wants his attention...

but I know it just wasting my time...

it just because I really miss him., love him...

what the hell on fb...

honestly...I like to open my facebook account..

it just happen just know...

a damn picture was updated into my friends home under ny name !!!!

astagfirullahalazim....!!!!!!!!!

it just annoying...I'm so embarrassed.,

why that could happen to me...

I was comment on that picture asking that picture edit or real...

I just feeled pity to that girl because maybe she was prey on that picture..

and I not aspect that picture will update with my name..

to my beloved friends out there..

please be careful, I dont want a same thing will happen to you..

why !!??

I do know why I admire u..

I do know why I like u..

I do know why I still keep waiting of you..

I do know why this could happen to me..

I'm just too tired with all this..

I just want a happiness, a love from you

please..don't makes me disspoint of you..

I'm begging on you...

phone number...

I already had celcom and maxis..
and know I looking for digi numbers..
for me and my bf..
I just think that is good investment for me???
this is my new relationship and I really wants take it as serious relationship..
I was reset my handphone and I lost rm3 for my credit !!!
what a ______ ????!!!!!!!
it's all about money !!!!
huh!!!! tomorrow..I will find digi numbers hopefully everything will easy for me..
and know..I want to continue my works..daa~~~~

..salam aidiladha..

assalamualaikum...

the best thing today is...

I got a misscall from him !!!!...heheeee

at last..it just gives my smile back for a while..

at least I know that he remember me..

and I was text him..but he didn't reply yet...

and I still keep waiting for that..

oh guy,,please understand me..huhuuu...

I hope I will get a call from him tonight..

I miss him, miss to laugh with him, fight with him, hear his voice..

and.......I also miss shopping but I don't have enough money for that..

nobody volunteer for sponsor my shopping..huhuhuuuu

today at my village at Nilai.,we just celebrate a birthday of 3 persons..

I just drove for many times...wearing a nice baju kurung..

a lot of foods and most important thing is we always try to..

strengthen the relationship between relative..

pictures for today at my fb.. =)))))

='(

assalamualaikum...

bismillahhirrohmanirrahim...

I'm still thinking what I will share for this second

a lot of things happen to me 

about my relationship..

my assignment..

my housemates..

my mid test..

my reunion date..

journey of interview..

trip for going home for raya haji..

I will not give with all this

I just need someone that will encourage me for my successful life

a person that can listen and respon with all my story, complaint, make me laugh and smile..

I'm too tired with all this

but I noticed that there's no easy way to be a successful person..

Mr.SMFD..

I will pray for our relationship

I hope you will be a better man
call me, text me coz I'm waitng for that..

be c0oL..

UPSI give us a week for deepavali holidays...
I think I feel more pressure when I at Banting..
this is because I doesn't feel to do my assignment..
I just do a little bit just for "at least I do my assignment at home"..
I'm disspointed with myself..I wanna go back to TM as soon as possible..
my books and all my things at there..
to mr.F, I'm happy to know you.,I hope you will feel the same..
I try to be chill + co0l with all this..
I know something goods are waiting for me...=)))))))

yup..!!!!,

I miss him!!!, but I really hate this feelings!
when I miss someone. I will always keep thinking of him.,
what he doing?, that he in this feeling also or not?, did I act to much in this new friendship?, and
blah..blah..blah...
I was text him last night., but he didn't reply on that time., maybe he's working last night.,
the funny thing is... I think he reply my message by using template in the phone..!!!,
what the lazy fingers that he has..hahaaa.,he ask me to call him., but I'm sleeping on that time..
until now I'm not calling him..I'm waiting for him call me and message me!!!
seriously...I miss him, I miss to hear his voice, talk with him, share any story with him,
he just makes me comfortable while talking together..I hope for this time I will not lost him..

sweet dreams last night....

last night.,,I was chatting with him and finally I got his phone number..hehehehe
after that, I was asked by him for calling him because he doesn't have a credit for calling me..hahahaa..
he such a funny guy, he makes me smile and laugh together with the jokes, I still keep reminds on my mind what we are talked last night, he has a sense of humor that a guy need to to cheer up his partner..seriously, so far I enjoy with him.,I love to talk with him, I really hope he will not disspoint me..really hope that..pray for that..heheee

I'm just keep waiting of him..hehehheeee^^^^,,,,

I'm happy right now and I'm to excited to share something..eemm...,,,,,
he older than me, he matured while give an opinions, he's tall buy looking on his pictures, he have a nice look, he take care of me, he gave me a good advice, he makes me interest to know better about himself..and he makes me miss him????!!!!!!!...O.M.G...what is this??????,he said that he's single...it just a green light for us...huhuuuu....hopefully everything will be fine on this friendship..
u!!!!!!,
please online...
I'm just waiting for u right know.heheheee

c0oking.....

assalamualaikum...
yesterday was my turn for cooking...I was cooked gulai lemak ayam cili api..it was my first time cooked that dish..I'm not from N9..but my grandma was from there..before this I'm just take a looked when my mum cooked...when I have to cook that dish I'm just to scared...actually it was demand from ipin...but I'm not give it to him..sorry ipin..I just thought you was go to Langkawi...surprisely...I had a good comment from my housemates..!!!!heee, so thankful for that..it means a lot for me..TQ girls...I love u alls..after this, I will make it again..it just like a practice for me for get prepare for others stage for my life...
My Gulai Lemak Ayam Cili Api just look like this...heheheee^^,

jealous for no points !!!

I like him just the way he are...but I know who I am...he just likes another person...I do not know why I have this feelings towards him...before this.,I just ignore him nothing special about him that can attract me...but.,right know I just confuse with my feelings...maybe it just because I'm feel lonely...I have to realizes all this...I have to be cool with all this...someone will come to my life to chill me up again..just be patient dear...

before I get my sleep...

I'm just done my group presentation for EC(2)....

I noticed that lecture maybe doesn't like what we have done about that presentation..
as a team.,we had put so much effort on that assignment..but no compliment !!..huhuuuu...

a compliment that can we feel our works is a little bit of appreciate from lecturer......hhmmm.....

let pass be pass...I'm just too bored this night..life must go on..I want to find a friend to join me back to banting on next tuesday..I miss to drive a car~~~...I hope my friend will invite me to follow her back home by using her kembara....hopefully..huhuu~~~

dadaaa~~~~~,,,that all from me.,gd nite...have a nice dreams..

3 hours before EC class...

we had a long chat or comments about partner on fb...
it just like EC class will cancel for today...ahakkss....
we just though that last night preparation that we had until 2 a.m are good enough for today presentation..emmm(maybe)..
okey...enough!!!!!
It is the time for me to open my EC book...
until we meet again before I sleep tonight...daa~~~~
I hope everything will be ok in Ec today..
 

so blah..blah...blah...n blah~~~~~

I feeled so damn today...it just not as I imagine and I hope...from my first impression I knew that this will not be a long relationship...I noticed that he can't be the best for me...he not care about me at all !!!, he didn't reply my message on that time...the fact is...he's not suite to me at all !!!, I want to stop all this...I want to break with you AS SOON AS POSSIBLE..!!!!!,I want back to be a SINGLE!!!!!!!, even I feel quite lonely... I know that it is the best for me for this time...I'm ready for a new relationship...but he's not you...you just to bored for me...sorry~~~~.....I know that my friends is the best for me...they all are everything for me after my parents...elli, lia, ika, faz, muna and seha...TQ girls for being my BFF and also my best housemates...
P/S for me...just forget about all this...focus on your assignment especially on EC...keep prays because Allah knows about all this...I know you can face all this...you such a strong girl that full of patient..hee^^,

Many things happen just in one day....

I went to shopping!!!!!!!!....hahahahaaa...it just a best moment in my life..
I went to MId Valley with elli and seha.,there's a big SALE!!!!!!!!!.,
seha just crazy of branded things...elli just wanted a things in METROJAYA.,as you know Metrojaya is a place for rich people as elli to buy a branded things also.,I just bought a simple things..just follow as my budget...heheee, it's wonderful if using a debit card...I just enjoy with my bff...I hope we will shopping together again...
on the way to back home...I just heard a bad news from my rent house...they told me the big fight just happened at our house...I can't said anything about that anymore...I just hope everything will be fine as soon as possible

he's a new guy...

a new guy..and maybe not my special boyfriend yet..but, going for that..heee=D
we're in a same universities..but we have never meet..i known him from facebook...
actually i know him from PLKN but i couldn't remind about him...from the default picture on facebook...
he looks nice...my friend said he has a chinese looks???...emmm,,,,maybe...just first impression for that...
he came to my life in a right time...i hope if this my new relationship i hope i will not crestfallen again...
message for him..."can you call me or make a long sentences while massaging"....heheee...
i'm just hoping and maybe dreaming...

I REALLY LOVED LAST NIGHT EVENT...!!!!!

assalakualaikum......
I'm in a good mood..!!!!!!
.
I just wanna keep this smile...
last 2 days I really had a nightmare...I just too bored with him..
a guy that love to lives in full of liars..good job man..you just shown to me who's the real you...
aaaahhhh........!!!!!!,just forget him...it just a bored story if I wrote at here..
about the last night...
it just a good event...I love to be a part of that event...I really enjoyed myself at there...a lot of pictures...and a lot of memories there...it makes me forgot about my problems...even you doesn't have a special boyfriend...but you still have a great, great, great and great GirlFriends!!!!!!!,
there are averything to you after your parents...just choose a good friends that can lead you in any situations...
everobody in a good dress, had a nice makeup, big smile on their face, it just gorgeous babe!!!!!, and...last but not least...congratulation to SUHAILI ZULMAHDI...!!!!!!!!!!, I'm proud to be your friends...keep up a good job girl!! ;)

your name on the slide Elli....!!!!!

My Best Housemates....
before dinner....
P/s....love yourself before you somebody...

motorcycle.....???????

assalamualaikum......

today is such a happy today for me...=D
before that....
I felt sad on my last class today...I felt sad until wanted to cry...
I'm just to afraid on that class...I'm not calm to know what will happen on that class..
so many works that need to do...and so many rules...
but., who am I to avoids all that..as long as I am a student..
I have to obey all that rules...
enough for sad moment...!!!!
we go back to the most happy moment for today...heee^^,
I learn something new today...!!!!!
I already known how to drive a motorcyle...
I'm just to surprise that drive a motorcycle is more easier than drive a car...
I'm just to proud for myself  I just take maybe less than 20 minutes to learn about that...
thank you so much to rafiz and elli because you all help me a lot about that motocycle...
that's all for today...until we meet again next time...daa~~~~...take care...=)

picnic & problem...?????????

assalamualaikum to all the readers...
(there are readers here????...heee)
last week i went to sg. samak with ikah n elli...

and this week i go with ikah, lia n faz...
i really enjoy with you all..there are not many people on that time..

just 4 of us.,so....we can free hair!!!!,heeee
we go at 10 o'clock and back home on 12.10 o'clock..
2 hours we spent our time take a bath..hahahahaa

the water are so cold, a lot of stone, and maybe a mosquito also...huhuuuu

what the important is...i can forgot about my problem for a while...

i want to stop thinking about that...but, i know i'm not strong enough yet..

i need someone to listen about my story about my feelings about my opinion.,

TQ elli because you understand me..you can spent your time in any situation to me..Tq dear..
i'm person that full of love and also a sensitive girl...mybe because i was learned from my mistakes..

when i love someone..i wanted your comitment in a serious relationsip...but it just a hope..i know who i am..

just be patient...God knows about that...follow your heart but not emotions...don't forget to pray, pray n pray...focus on what you're doing...I'Allah...happiness will be yours...

i'm feel guilty....=(((((((

sorry dear...
i didn't mean to hurt your car...

it just a small line and i think it not so obvious on your car...

i thought it happen when i made a reverse before went to class..

it just because on that time i'm to rushing to went to class...

i know that you feeled reluctantly when i asked to borrow your car....
but...we're to desprate that time because of raining...

i keep my promise everytime i said i will topup a petrol on your car..

i'm really sorry....sorry..sorry..sorry...

wiFi iS hEre....!!!!!!!!

hallooooo.....................
assalamualaikum.,
how are you there?????
hope you guys in a good health.,
want i want to share with you all is.............................
-MY HOME GET WIFI RIGHT KNOW!!!!!!!!!
HAHAHAAA.......TQ so much to cik.Lia.,and TQ for us also because keep waiting with all the patient for this mr.wifi came to ur HOME SWEET HOME.....heeee^^,
-for my evening te'a i had a keropok lekor...original from TERENGGANU..it's so delicious...!!!!!!!,TQ for miss.ellie for the keropok lekor.,later, bring it again okey.....:))))))))
-i think this is a good news for me...but when i know that "afiqah" is not me.,it hurt me back..it just makes me hurt and disspointed about you.,it's hard for me to believe on you.,but...i do know why i still keep thinking of you..what i want just help me to totally forget you and this feeling!!!!!!

serious...!!!!!,i quite disspointed of u.,:((((

hi,
 on 21st of september was his birthday.,as usual i was wished at him before 00.30.,but...until now he didn't replay my message.,i just keep waiting until this second there's something come in into my phone......,i do know why he do this to me.,it really hurt babe..!!!!!,i try to be chill but i still keep thinking of that.,he didn't sms or call me.,i just to afraid if i disturb him.,or maybe he got a new girlfriend right know....that's why he ignore me....????!!!!,it's ok dude...i hope u doing well..and maybe just because i miss u..........

ehem2....

Assalamualaikum....
  haha...this is my first time in blogging.,i'm feel so suprised because i was not expected at all that i will have a blog.,i know that i just not good in english but i will try my best to improve it.,this is my second week in upsi., and i just plan to go back to my home sweet home on this thursday...!!!!, i'm just so excited to meet my family.,i was bought a few polcadots baju kurung for my sisters n also my lovely mum.
please support me in this blogging world.,i'm just to shy...heheheee..
that's all for this time.,until we meet again....good night..sweet dreams..