I disappointed again and again and again

when he came to my life, he makes me smile, I felt that he's everything for me,,
he loves me but he's loves his gf more than me,,
yup ! that the fact I have to accept,,
he's not mine and maybe can't be mine,,
even what he said before this,,
please come back to me if you really sure with your feelings,,
I hate to cry because of you but my heart was cried in silent mode,,
I always pray that one day you'll be mine,,
but it just a dreams,,, I really hope I will meet a guy that can makes me forget about you!
totally forget about you !!!
I hate you !!! I really hate you!!! you're not royal with your partner !!
trust me !! after this,, I will always hate you !!