aku dpt kek SECRET RECIPE lh !!

walaupun hri jdi ku telh leps..
tp still dlm bln 12 lg ea..
aq lhir 16/12/? .,
sgt bt aq trsnym mlm ny..
aq dpt a slice of cake lh !!!!
SECRET RECIPE plk tu !!!
aq th npe ipin beli 2.,mmg lh tok aq n muna..
n mst sbb nnt befday dy.,dy nk dpt 2 potg kek
so..kteowg kne lh bls gk t..heheee
tp..x kesh lh tu...
yg pntg...
his a first guy among my boyfriends that gave me a cake even for a slice..
TQ so much DudE !!! =))))))))))))))

eeeeeuuuuuuwwwwwwww........!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

assalamualaikum,,,

entry ny bukn lh nk kutuk sespe.,aq th aq mgkn bt gk kot.,tp aq x bt pn.,x prnh bt pn.,

sumpah demi Allah aq geli., bukn sbb aq jeloz tp tolglh fhm.,jgn nk tunjuk yg itu dosa..

kte th dn sume org th cple tu dosa.,dh th kte bt doasa tp npe still nk tunjuk kt org???

pleezzz lh !!!!!.,aq x jeloz ! skit pn x !., cme aq sgt geli.,

ya Allah,,pe yg de dlm hti, prasaan n otak aq ny..

knpe aq mle rse geli ble t'bce yg mcm tu???

aq yg sbnrnye Kau cuba tunjuk padaku..

aq ku lemah ya Allah.,

aq th aku berkeinginan utk itu.,tp tidaklh utk menunjuk..

aq melengkp kn diri utk ke arh itu..

tolg aq ya Allah.,jauhilh aku dr perasaan yg boleh merosakkn hbungn aq dgn org len..

aq x mhu membnci dn d bnci..

tolg lh kuatkn iman aq tok melwn nafsu dn godaan syaitn ini ...

Kau yg Maha Berkuasa dan Maha Mengetahui..

semoga ada hikmah besar di sebalik sume ini,,,

mlm sblm blek esk tok face stdy week sem 3

assalamualaikum..
adk aq demand nk puteri mndi..aq pn mmg nk kuih tu pn sbb dh lme sgt x mkn..
dr sblm blek cuti krisms lg aq asyk sebut kueh tu je..so, ble dh blek ny aq bt lh..
ble dh syok uli tepung n bt inti sume.,aq rse plek je.,asl lh tepung yg aq rebus tu rse semcm je..
aq sruh ibu tgk.,
 lastly,
 my mom said that it was a wrong flour !!!,
wtf?????, aku dh penat kot uli tepung tu sume.,hbes 1 paket tepung aq gne,,
sumenye aq cmpk dlm tong ja !!!!
bazir ja!!!
cm nr nk kawen ny???
tepung pn bley slh...
tp nseb bek puding roti mnjdi even beks bocor..tp aq th rsenye still bez gk..heheheee
pent dh~~~ nk solt..tp bju aq bsh bsuh sume piok td...pent nyah!!!
x bpe stdy pn duk umh ny.,
esk nk blek awl lh..

...Alhamdullillah...

apabila aq nekad untuk membenci dirinya,

aku mula memasang azam untuk merelakan pemergiannya,

aku perlu sedar hakikatnya dan dia telah membuat pengakuan kepadaku,

aku tak mahu mengingatinya lagi aku perlu redha atas apa yang berlaku,

kini, aku bersedia dan benar-benar bersedia untuk menerima kehadiran teman baru dalam hidupku,

selepas pengakuan darinya aku mula terfikirkan sesuatu, 

aku ingin berkawan dengan anak kawan ibuku bagi mengeratkan lagi hubungan antara keluarga kami,

aku berharap aku ada jodoh dengan anaknya, aku anak ke-2 dan dia anak ke-2 juga,

aku tidak mahu berharap sangat, tapi aku berdoa untuk itu,

dan rasanya Allah mendengar doaku. terima kasih Ya Allah,

aku harap kali ini biarlah yang benar, jangan terburu-buru lagi

I'Allah kesabaranku akan membuahkan hasil nanti,

aku tidak mahu berdendam, biar pun ku katakan benci tapi tidak sebenarnya..

aku sangat terkejut pabila dia 'approve'ku di fb, dan aku sangat tidak sangka dia terus menegurku di pm,

em,,,1 langkah yang baru dan sangat bijak dari dia..semoga perkara ini akan berlaruta,, =)))))))

cukup dulu sampai di sini,,nanti akan ku ceritakan lagi perkembangan seterusnya..

buka lh pintu hatimu,,,

aku perlu benar-benar melupakanmu,,
aku perlu buka pintu hatiku untuk lelaki lain,,
aku ingin berkenalan dengan lelaki lain,,
lelaki yang boleh membuat aku melupakanmu,,
lelaki yang boleh buat aku tidak teringatkanmu,,
lelaki yang boleh dengar semua ceritaku,,
lelaki yang boleh bahagiakanku,,
lelaki yang akan setia denganku,,
lelaki yang boleh pimpinku duniadan akhiat,,
wahai hati, izinkanlah kehadiran lelaki lain dalam hidupmu..
berhati-hatilah, jangan dikau terburu-buru lagi..
aku tahu bahagia sedang menantimu..
umurmu telah meningkat..tuanmu perlukan teman hidup
untuk menyempurnakan dirinya....

entry pertama dlm bahasaku,,,,

blog ny dh x de kne mengena ngn EC2 lg...

aq mmg plan nk deactive kn je tp ble pkr blek,,,,

aq prlu ruang tok brcte.,klu de psgn, dy lh akn jd mgse.,

nk cte kt ibu tp ibu x slalu de ngn sy dn ibu sbuk jgk.,

nk cte kt kwn dy pn de mslh dy gk,,

sy prlu ruang tok brcte,,

sy seorg yg ske brcte,,

org knl sy akn th stry sy,,

maafkn sy klu stry sy borg,,

tp ini lh ruang yg sy de selen org sekeliling sy,,,

sy x hrpkn org bce tp atleast hti sy lega leps meluahkn,,,

I wanna go home

tomorrow I have my last class on this semester.,

that class will end at 7 p.m,

I wish tomorrow my father will take me here,,

I just can't make any decisions right know,,,

tonight, I hope I and Elli will be easy for us to add subject for next semester,,,

@}--- special rose for Seha

0LLaLaaa,,,,...

tomorrow I and Elli was decided to cook something special for Seha,,
and Seha was told us that she likes to eat something that makes from us,,
so,,we decided to cook ayam paprik., this is our first time cook this dish special for Seha,,

that dish would looks like on that photo,,
hopefully everything will be okey,,
Seha will enjoy with her lucnh tomorrow,,,
heheheee ^^,

reminder for me, I & you

it's bored to talk about love

it's bored to always think about love

it's bored to find love

it's bored to lists about my love

it's bored to waiting for a lover

it's bored to remember about 'him'

it's bored to imagine how's his looks

and many mores

especially love to find a Mr.Right

but,, we can't said that "we bored to love Allah"

Allah will always listen to your conscience

Allah will not tired to approve all your wish lists

Allay will always listen your prayer

even your every words is your own prayer

just relax and think for a while

Allah knows what is the best for you and your future

don't give up don't yield with devil temptation

..fasting..

assalamualaikum.,
as usual for Muslim, Monday and Thursday are the days that circumcision for us for fasting.
last night, Muna was invited me, Lia and faz for fasting today.,
we all agreed and decided for fasting today,,,
but, what was happen is.....we're not fasting.,
after a late woke up.,we all try to find rice... huhuuu
only Faz still fasting for today because she's not done yet her replacement fast.,
so,,,what I can conclude here is,,,we will eat rice together after this on Maghrib while watching Tentang Dhia..hehehee

I disappointed again and again and again

when he came to my life, he makes me smile, I felt that he's everything for me,,
he loves me but he's loves his gf more than me,,
yup ! that the fact I have to accept,,
he's not mine and maybe can't be mine,,
even what he said before this,,
please come back to me if you really sure with your feelings,,
I hate to cry because of you but my heart was cried in silent mode,,
I always pray that one day you'll be mine,,
but it just a dreams,,, I really hope I will meet a guy that can makes me forget about you!
totally forget about you !!!
I hate you !!! I really hate you!!! you're not royal with your partner !!
trust me !! after this,, I will always hate you !!

today was not fairy tales,,,,,

I just came back from KL last night,,,
I reached at home around 11 p.m,,,
I had my slept at late 12 p.m,,,
I had to woke up early,,
after subuh I can't continue my sleep as usual
I have to get ready early for that explorace
I, muna, faz, lia, & hafiz in one team...
we had a lot of fun, we runs, solve problems, laughs, had a lunch together.. and many mores..
and all those things was worth for us even we're really tired right know.,
we're had number 4th in this race..number was not important,,
the important is we can spent aou time together and we'll have certificate because join that event,,,

=(((((((

I just came back from KL with seha,,,
we went to sunway pyramid,,
for me,,today is nothing
nothing and nothing
I use rm 80 for today
but I got nothing
what I've planned was "nucghvujtmr,lcjexoisu ynfuceuivc........" 
nothing that makes me joy for today,,
a bad journey.,a spoil journey.,
better I get my sleep right know,,

a bad day

a damn day !!!!
impossible his gf reply my msg at ym,,,
impossible he with his gf on this time,,,
I just can't believe that,,,
I really need an explanations !!!!

calculus,,

I love calculus..
I always try to complete the questions..
I hope calculus will help my pointer for this semester..
I was meet Mr.Syah and he was answer all my questions..
I really sure that will help me a lot on assignments and my final exam..

today is my day !!!

h0LLa,,,,,,

today is my 20th birthday,,,,,

I'm happy because I'm still alive,,, thank God

my housemates was celebrate it with me last night..

the most unforgettable is...C0fFeE baTh..

hahahaa..really damn it !!!!

I really hate coffee.,even for smile,,eeeuuuwwwww,,,,,,it's foul !

to elli,,TQ for the cake, TQ because still remember my favorite cake..

to muna, ika, faz and lia,,TQ for the supper...

to my mr.M you was gave me an unforgettable memory last night..hehehee

I miss u & luv u

2 days more,,,,

I count on you...
for my "day" ...
day that I hope will make me smile...
will give me a sweet memories...
for my beloved guy I hope you will do something that I'm not expect at all...
sometimes I just felt that you are mine., but not yet., I can't put any hope on that...
I afraid I will disappointed again with you., but, honestly I'm happy when I with you...
for my bro,,please....please.....please.....support me,,,=((((( huhuuu,,,,
I would like to met you this weekend...

please be good for me,,,

I want to use washing machine tonight,,,
but that machine was make trouble to me,,,
please,,please,,please help me machine,,,
there's a lot of my clothes need you to serves tonight,,,
I really hope you will be okay after this,,,
I will give you a rest about a couple of hours,,,
later,,please wash my clothes okay??? heeee,,,,,

"the power of money"

just now,,
I bought my stationery for facing my becoming exam,,
the total was rm 10.60 and my food rm 2.50,,
I was planned for thrifty for last week, this week until the end of semester,,
but I think right know,, my plan was failed,, I can thrifty on my foods,,
but not for other things,, my shampoo, my stationery, my shopping,
and I also plan for hang out for this weekend,,
money again !!
sometimes,, I felt that rm 50 is just nothing,
rm 50 for one week or usually more than that,,
that's the power of money,,
you can't control that,,
without money,,life is nothing,,
even you want to go to toilet,,you have to pay for that

2nd last assignment was done by me,,,,

log's book for pandu just completely done by me at 6.30 p.m..
I'm really happy for that.,for this semester we only have 2 more weeks..
and I only have one more assignment that need to be done by my group..

I will not check my coursework !!
I know I'm not good but I will always try to be the best.,
all this for my future and my parents..
I will score for all papers...
hopefully I will achieve my target..

him,,,,

almost every night before we sleep we will chat together by ym..
we still can share everything together,,,
we still can laugh together,,,
he still can makes me smile,,,
I always realizes that he's already have the special one,,
I just a single girl that need someone that maybe him to be my sides,,
I know that our story are already pass and it was become a memories,,
but...em,,maybe there's still have made between us,,
em,,I can't say so much about that,,,
I really afraid if I will hurt again,,,
just let it go..Allah knows the best for me,,

going to KL

actually I'm not plan for going to KL today,,
but, when my parents invited me,,
I can't said "No" for them,,
I just went there.,we're promise to to meet at S0g0...huhuu
I didn't plan to buy a t-shirt.,but,,hehehee I was buy it one.,
I happy when see my family happy..
I really enjoy cause I can spent my Sunday with them,,,
there're everything for me..
I love them,,I always pray for their goodness and happiness,,
=))))))))

schedule for next semester,,

as usual when a semester comes to the end,,
upsi student's need to draft their own schedule,,
a lot of problems we have to face while doing this draft,,
a chronic time or a climax is when a register time,,
portal will always stuck on that time,,
patience will be tested on that time,,
only a lucky person can't see the error part,,,
and I hope I is the person,,
hopefully I, elli, lia, and seha simplified for this time,,
okey !! I can't stand anymore..
adiiooss ,,,, gd nyte,,

friends..

I was told elli that I want a soft copy of algebra assignments for 2 times.,
I was told her on the right time when she is infront of her notebook.,
but,, until now she didn't give yet the soft copy tome.,
I know I'm not clever like her., she doesn't need to study hard so much to get a good result.,
but I'm not like her.,I have to works more and more than her to get that good result.,
I really need a soft copy for me to make a revisions.,
sometimes I felt that I was isolated from her and seha.,
but I have to ignore that feelings.,
that feelings will destroy our relationship..

em,,,,last night

he said I was changed.,
but from what aspect he didn't mentioned it.,
I just felt that I'm not change at all.,
I'm still who I am before and after break with him.,
maybe last night and last two night what I'm said just makes him think for a while
Who really I am..It's really me..
who loves to talk with the person that she feel comfortable with..
mayus is a person that understand me..he's character and his personality majority in my list..but, I'm not with him right know.,he just found a new person that can make him happy more than me.,I can share everything with him.,we're just no hesitation to lough together or to ridicule together..
syafiq is a person that very straight with his attitude.,sometimes I felt bored with him.,every words that comes out from his mouth can make you heard if you're not rally know him..I just really confirm with my feelings that I really have no feelings with him.,his also already had his love

what??? Ec class cancel????

for the first time Ec class was canceled!!!!
hahahaaa..I'm so surprised
I always dreamed for that
one day before tuesday..
only that things I will dreamed off
finally !!! my dream comes true !!!
heehehee^^,

I have no spirit for today

today I fasting with all my housemates
quite tired.,quite hungry.,quite lethargic
today I have role play.,this feelings will always came on every tuesday especially on EC class..
just ready for it even my heart said "you lie on yourself, you're not in good condition".
hah.. !!!, just cool.,everything will be okey...believe on yourself

it will not happen

what I wish for next week only a dream..

he can't come here just for meet me..

he's far from me., I know who I am..

I just he's ex.,and maybe I'm not important to him..

I just want to enjoy on my 20th birthday..

I don't want stay at tanjung malim on that weekend..

I want do something unforgettable..

go to Damansara...my brother will not there on that day..

huh,,,, maybe it will be a sad day for me..

maybe I will cry under a blanket on that day..

it's hard to forget a bad memory

people always said...'let gone by gone' 'just ignore' 'don't think about it anymore'
'what past it just past' 'open a new diary' 'just act like nothing happen'
but aren't they noticed that it's not easy as A - B - C.,
even we try to busy our self in one all day.,before sleep we still think about it for a while.,even for a minute or a few seconds.,we try to let it go..but deep inside our heart and brain.,it's still keep running inside.,
we can't avoid it.,unless we found something to replace it..yup !!! REPLACE IT!
but... I'm not found it yet..huhuuu =((((((

my 'U' !!

with him..I started to use "I & U" while chatting or talking that also after clash..
with him..I went for a first dating..
with him..I really feel a true love..
with him..I felt I really appreciated by him..
with him..I really felt that he's my right guy..
with him..even after clash, we still contact each other, If people doesn't know about us, I really sure they will aspect us as a couple, but not anymore, he's already had his love..
but I...still find a true love..
my friends said I hard to accept another guys it because deep inside my hear is still him..
em,,,I know about that.,my story with him was a year ago.,it just a memory
just let it go..time will decide it..pray for a goodness between us...

daa ~~~

shikh..is a guy that I admire before this...
I just decided to lost contact with him...
and I really do it..what make me really disappointed about him are :
he's never call me
he's never text me
he's never try to top up at digi sim card to contact me
he's never try to say "hi" at me on fb or ym or even 'buzz' me..
he's never do that !!!
just now..I really fell that I'm not important towards him..
even I not contact for such a long time.,he's also didn't try to find me or contact me
even though we're online at the same time..
it really show that.,he's not loves me and I'm not important to him..
I was waste my money for him..for a new sim card. I bought 2 new numbers for us..
that because I really aspect he wants serious with me..but know it's nothing..
why I so stupid??? I really regret about that..huhhh !!!

10 days more...

today is tuesday 6/12/2011

heheee just 10 days more...

I hope on my 20th birthday...

there's something sweet will happen to me...

I so thankful.,my mid test calculus was best !!!

the result just make me smile and smile and smile...=))))))))))))

I love multivariable calculus..ya!! I love it..

list before & on 16th December 2011

today.,on 5th of dec.,I was finished read my Quran..

Alhamdullillah..it's still in my plan before my period and before my birthday..

16/12 will in Friday..on that night I hope I can read yassin for my late mama and my late mak..

I just miss them so much...

on 16/12.,I hope I will meet mayus as I planned..to fulfill my promise towards him..

on saturday I just planned to go kya house's.,meet them..and on sunday back to tanjung malim..

what I want for my birthday just...I want a memory..memory that I will remember until I die..

be patient

Different person have their own opinions in certain issue..
even we are disagree with that things we have to accept that..
accept for avoid misunderstanding, avoid fighting, avoid dispute..
I know I'm not perfect.,I just like others who want in love and be loved..
please take care of yourself..please...I don't want something bad happen to you..

skip class ??!!

heheheeee.....
for the 1st time...em,,actually not really first time..
in this semester...I was skip 3 class include today..
1st my pandu class because missunderstanding with the information given on group...
2nd was my 3p alternate class..that one because all my members doesn't wanted to attend that class.,so,,,I also had to skip that class..
3rd was today.,hehee,,,still 3p class, I feel tired, I had to top up back my sleep for last 2 days..,so,,I and elli was sleep.,it's hard for us to wake up early in monday morning for attend that class...
s0rry lect.,we promise we will attend your class on wednesday...hee^^,

tired !

this weekend just not a weekend for me !
I had to attend my class from morning until afternoon.,
for Saturday & Sunday
then, after class I have to complete the report book
I'm just too tired.,I'm hate all this..I get stomach and waist pain..
I can't sit properly right know..I just need rest..
hopefully I will get better soon..gd nyte~~~

reality..or a fraud??

I know you already have a special one..
but,,,every time when I remind you about her or I open a topic about her..
you will always change back the topic or you will not answer my questions..
why you???? why you do this to me????
I don't wanna go a date with girl's boyfriend.,
please understand me..I know you know what my feeling says about you...

tension !!!

I'm tired with my studies..
why I'm not born as a clever person in all aspect of life...
I want be clever in mathematics and business and also my religion..
I want be success !!! it hard for me to understand something in short time..
please Allah help me.
make all this easy for me,...

open day at KhAR

after maghrib I and Lia went to TS hypermarket to buy kitchen stuffs as usual when came to new month..

total was rm96.45.,quite surprise because each member need to paid rm16 each..big amount !!
then, I went to KhaR., for the first day I came there...I use rm rm10..

tomorrow???,...maybe another rm10.,heheheee